Sadly, everyday I spend way more time on social media than I probably should however, I also spend a ton of time on phone calls, texts and sometimes when time permits….coffee with friends.
“The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on or blame. The gift is yours. It is an amazing journey. And you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life rely begins.”
– Bob Moawad
I love this quote. I love it because, I get it finally. I am almost there, to the point of really ensuring my life is my own. The scars and all.
In my previous post I shared the story behind my most liked photo, to kinda show how imperfect that photo is, even though I was proud of the end result.
Today, I want to discuss how I compare myself to others. This is where Social Media makes us all think we are not good enough. What you read going forward it also why I need a break from Facebook.
Facebook and 3 am.
Here is yet another night, 3:00 am, I am bored and no longer interested in editing photos. What is Facebook land up to ? Let us take a look.
Oh man, “he” is really kicking ass at the gym, I wish I could have abs like him, hell I’d even settle for toned arms, too bad my strength is only cardio.
Haha, look at how cute their little human is, too cute for words. Mom and Dad look so happy as newer parents. Hmm, am I really getting to old to have kids? Geez I will be 39 soon. Of course, I have to actually date to be able to make a tiny human of my own. I love kids, meh, maybe one day but I would love to have a child look at me with eyes full of love. OK, anyway…
Oh wow, she is looking stunning. Love that smile. Maybe, no, can’t ask her out, far from her type.
Look at that photographer !!I love this persons work, their photography is something I am just amazed by, I need to learn how to take shots like that but just don’t have time. Seriously, wow, I just spent an hour looking through their portfolio, mine is good but definitely not to the talent level of him/her.
Scroll, scroll, scroll…… Looks like some people did some fun stuff today. I am kinda boring. I edited, I read, napped like a cat again, enjoyed a little sunshine but stayed in Calgary. Sometimes a camping invite or hike would be nice. Maybe I should be the one inviting.
I really should call him/ her. Meh, they’d be too busy with their family to hang out. The joys of being a single person when all your friends have young families or new boyfriends/ girlfriends.
I hate being so damn busy, but….ugh, more free time would be just nice to try a few of these things that he is doing.
Oh look, she said I am an awesome guy, inspiration. Can’t see why she’d say this. I am just me, always have been, no one special, just someone who wants to see others smile, just a guy always trying to be better. Just Me.
Why do we do this ? Why do we compare?
OK, so ya, those are thoughts I have had when looking at Facebook. Other things that happen at 3 am. Let’s just say it is a lonely hour, In fact it is when I feel most alone. No one to call, no one to go home to, just me. It is the time when I am jealous of those who have someone to sleep beside.
So when I look on Social Media, I begin to question my self worth, my level of exciting and my mind drives forward thinking of ways to make my life exciting again, in a sense so others may notice. I think I am boring, I don’t go out much, I get more exhausted than I show, I cat nap and get social anxiety.
My goal going forward is not to compare my life to those around me. It won’t be easy. Just like those around me, I know others compare themselves to me and think my life is always happy. Now, to be clear, overall I am happy but I am not living my life for me in the way I want.
I have said to others who have come to me upset or falling into bad habits, that if you don’t like it, change it. Time to take my own advice.
I am ok with being imperfect. What I am not ok with is not living my life with passion and desire and rather than doing something about it, I sit here, compare and think I am just not good enough, smart enough, creative enough or talented enough.
Next time you are online and comparing your life to others, just remember someone is comparing their life to yours.
I would love to hear your stories of comparison. Will you set a goal like me to stop it ?