In the months since my Heart Attack I have been consumed with making my life more than it is, more enlightened, more enriched and purely enjoyable.
Now, for the most part so much has gone right. I have accomplished in some situations, more than I could have imagined.
You see Universe, I come to you to address and put forth one area of my life that I have struggled with for quite some time.
Yes, two parts of my life are not what I’d wish. My absent love life and my career, however today I wish to focus on the other and put faith in the world that combined with my own determination and skills will be accomplished and enrich my life.
You see Universe, I have a job. I have a job that I am not happy with. In fact as you are aware my career has been on a downhill slope since about 2009. Some of it my own doing some of it were circumstances out of my control.
Since my return to work I have been more than just unsatisfied and unfulfilled. I have been frustrated I have dreaded even walking into the building. I have felt things that I just cannot ignore. I am tired of being somewhere that lacks any real people focus. Both Client and Employee.
I realize that I am better than I give myself credit for.
You see Universe, I desire more. I have tried numerous ways to find new work. I have tried to just embrace what I have so that I am not miserable everyday in hopes that will help in my job search.
You see Universe, I am never one to give up. The job search is no different but in my job I am almost there for more reasons than can be explained in one letter.
You see Universe, I have tried everything but this. I have yet to ask you for your help. Your help to show me how to align my life that will welcome a career that I will enjoy even on the tough days. A job where I feel like I am doing something more than just lining the pockets of the executives and owners. A job where I feel valued as an asset. A job where I can utilize the best of me and have desire to do my best to line those pockets while making a difference in my life as well as those I am surrounded by. A job that I am proud to announce that I do and not shudder at the thought of being asked “ What do you do ?” A job where I can grow and stay for a long time.
You see Universe, whether I work for a big corporation or a small non profit, I just want to be utilized and taught and trained. I am now opening my eyes, my heart to whatever may come and because I am who I am……My goal is within 3 months.
So, Universe, teach me and direct me and bring what I am trying to sow into my life in the direction of my awareness while I continue to grow in every part of my life outside of my career.
I have faith in myself.
I have faith in you, Universe
We can be a great team.
Let’s do this.